awkward.

Sunday, 26 April 2015 @ 23:24

So for those of u that read my blogggg, i will no longer blog here but at withoutasenseofconfidence.blogspot.com

Wednesday, 18 February 2015 @ 22:18

haven't been blogging for so longggg!!! School has been okay? I like my school, met new people, have some friends and learnt some stuff? Just that the distance from my house to school is SOOO FARRR but it hasn't been affecting my life or studies so yay!? :D

There are some other stuff that is still bothering me though... not convenient to write it here but you can always ask me :D (provided we are close friends xP ) Not sure whether i will be feeling like that forever but I really hope it goes away ._. Thank god i have some people to make me feel less shittier than before :D Grateful for you guys <3

I got the subject combination that i wanted (DUH. i only screwed one subject and it really F me over so badly D: )

BCME! Who is taking the same combi as me ? :D

Econs >>>>>>>> Bio ( I didn't expect that though )

Math is so far okay? but i hope my teacher is good and patient enough to teach me? ( I am retarded okay)

Chemistry - My favourite subject so far HAHAHAHA

Chinese - Annoyed at the syllabus >.<

GP - haven't really started on it but i hope i won't die :P

PW - Future PWmates, pls be nice (:

I am still kinda slack though ._. I need to stop that! Starting from today! or after CNY! haha. I need to get promoted okay! i am not gonna retain !!!!! I think i have been fooling around too much in sec3 till now... maybe it seems to you that i have been mugging a lot in sec3 -4... but i know i didn't. Too many regrets already...I can't afford one more.

Anyway to this certain someone <3

LOVE U SO MUCH AND THANK YOU SO MUCH. I AM SUCH A SHIT, BORING, UNAPPRECIATIVE PERSON + I DONT SHOW MY EMOTIONS AND YOU CANT SEE THIS BUT YEAH :D THANK YOU <3 YOU MAKE MY DAY EVERYDAY (: LIFE WOULD HAVE BEEN SHITTIER WITHOUT YOU.

Sunday, 25 January 2015 @ 03:09

Hourglass

Will today be a good day?

Tuesday, 13 January 2015 @ 20:19

arghhh

hahaha guess who fucked up her results to the point that her results doesn't show her capabilities and standards? ME. IDEK what to say... all because of one subject, i end up not being able to choose the JCs i wanted D: and worst, a JC near my house that is okay ._. I can go into good poly courses though...but my parents do not want me to go poly >.< I don't even know how i am going to tell my results to people...really didn't expect it to happen omg D: D: I guess things doesn't go the way I want most of the time ): Hopefully the next thing i hope for will come true.

Saturday, 10 January 2015 @ 14:20

2 more days....

haha i guess counting down to olevel results isn't really healthy. but i can't help it >:

Anyway i have nothing to do except to blog and go on tumblr and go crazy over my idols haha

and the funny thing is that idk what to blog now hehe. and i ran out of money D: I spent too much gahhhh...

Found this on the internet so i am gonna do it!

WHAT WAS YOUR:

1. Last beverage: coke
2. Last phone call: my mum
3. Last text message: fionaa
4. Last song you listened to: Kim Jong Kook - One Man
5. Last time you cried: can't rmb....
6. Got back with someone you've broken up with: FOREVER ALONE
7. Been cheated on: FOREVER ALONE
8. Kissed someone & regretted it: FOREVER ALONE
9. Lost someone special: yup.
10. Been depressed: almost everyday or recently...
11. Been drunk and threw up: nope

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS:

12. blue
13. purple
14. black

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2015)

15. Made a new friend: yupp workplace friends?
16. Fallen out of love: nope
17. Laughed until you cried: nope..tbh it has never happened to me before
18. Met someone who changed you: nope
19. Found out who your true friends were: maybe
20. Found out someone was talking about you: nope
21. Kissed anyone on your Facebook friend's list: nope
22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life: most....
23. How many kids do you want? two...
24. Do you have any pets: last time... but now..nope.
25. Do you want to change your name: I like my name but celestia is nice too
26. What did you do for your last birthday: nothing?
27. What time did you wake up? 12pm :D
28. What were you doing at midnight last night? watching running man :D
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for?: 4th april! AAA concert :D
30. Last time you saw your Mother: today?
32. What are you listening to right now: AAA /Fireworks.
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: yes omg. hahaha my china exchange programme.
34. Who is getting on your nerves now? Someone...idw to say the name though...
35. Most visited webpage: Youtube
36.Whats your real name: Vanessa ?
37. Nicknames: Van Wong
38. Relationship Status: Single
39. Zodiac sign: Aquarius
40. Male or female? Female
41. Primary School?: Tao Nan School
42. High School?: CHIJ Katong Convent
43. College?: not yet...
44. Hair color: black
45. Long or short: long
46. Height: 153 i think...i am kinda short T_T
47. Do you have a crush on someone?: nope.
48: What do you like about yourself?: idk....
49. Piercings: nope
50: Tattoos: nope
51. Righty or lefty: i used to be a lefty but now a righty

FIRST:

52. First surgery: nope
53. First piercing: nope
54. First best friend: Crystabelle? haha but i kinda lose contact with her?
55. First sport you joined: running LOL
56. First vacation: can't rmb...
57. First pair of trainers: can't rmb

RIGHT NOW:

58. Eating: noodles
59. Drinking: water
60. I'm about to: idk...
61. Listening to: Linkin Park - Leave out all the rest
62. Waiting for: my results
63. I'm feeling: anxious

YOUR FUTURE :
( i have no idea 67-72 is me or my future bf hahahaha i will just put that)
64. Want kids? yeah
65. Get married?: yeah
66. Career: idk..
67. Lips or eyes: eyes
68. Hugs or kisses: hugs haha
69. Shorter or taller: taller bf?
70. Older or Younger: older than me duh
71. Romantic or spontaneous: idk..
72. Nice stomach or nice arms: what? BOTH
73. Sensitive or loud: ahaha not sure...
74. Hook-up or relationship: relationship la
75. Kissed a stranger: nope
76. Drank hard liquor: maybe i will :D
77. Lost glasses/contacts: nope
78. Sex on first date: nope
79. Broken someone's heart: idk but no la.
80. Been arrested: no
81. Turned someone down: no
82. Cried when someone died: no
83. Fallen for a friend: no

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

84. Yourself: maybe
85. Love at first sight: depends
86. Heaven: yeah
87. Santa Claus: no but i wished it was real
88. Kiss on the first date: no
89. Angels: yeah
90. God: somewhat.

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:

91. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time: no
92. Did you sing today?: no
93. Ever cheated on somebody?: no
94. If you could go back in time, how far would you go?: 2007
95. The moment you would choose to relive?: no idea...
96. Are you afraid of falling in love?: maybe
97. When was the last time you lied?: haahah yesterday
98. Are you usually late, early or right on time?: right on time/early...but recently late
99. Are you a good person?: i don't think anyone is a good person. I hate myself so no.
100. What's the most horrible thing you've ever done? idk...get somebody into trouble ._.

hahaha i am done with this... should i do more... yup :D

1. Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, find line 4 and write the sentence here: "Have a way of going unnoticed do you? "
2. Stretch your left arm out as far as you can. What’s there? Soft Toy
3. What is the last thing you watched on TV? Running Man haha
4. Without looking, guess what time it is: 3pm
5. Now look at the clock. What is the actual time? 2.23pm hahaha
6. With the exception of the computer, what can you hear? nothing....
7. When did you last step outside? What were you doing? yesterday. went poly open house
8. Before you started this survey, what did you look at? my blog?
9. What are you wearing? pri sch shirt and sec sch shorts LOL
10. Did you dream last night? no
11. When did you last laugh? yesterday
12. What is on the walls of the room you are in? nothing
13. Seen anything weird lately? nah
14. What is the last film you saw? Night at the museum 3
15. If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy? amusement park :D tokyo disneyland and sea.
16. Tell me something about you that I don’t know : I want hair like ke$ha

17. If you could change one thing about the world, what would you change? i wish everyone will be nice.
18. Do you like to dance? no
19. What do you think of the president? amazing person
20. Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her? right now...espella? i suck at girl names omg.
21. Imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him? Joshua/ Mike/ Anthony/
22. Would you ever consider living abroad? yes! but i need someone who can take care of me haha
23. What do you want to say to God when you reach the pearly gates? ???????

HAHAHA i am done with another one...

1. Is it cute when guys kiss you on your forehead? yes :D but i am single hhahaha
2. A big poofy dress or a short party dress? idk... short party dress ?
3. What would you do if you received a long love letter? eh...idk hhahahaah
4. Group dates or single dates? single dates :D
5. Do you hate it when guys act different around their friends? idk....
6. Are diamonds a girls best friend? no.
7. Is your hair up or down today? down.
8. Do you straighten your hair? yeah
9. Favorite mascara? no
10. Do you get your nails done? no
11. Small or large purses? small.
12. In your purse, what are your must haves? money and ezlink card
13. Jeans or sweats? jeans.
14. Do you wear clothes/shoes/jewelry thats uncomfortable? nope.
15. Do you text message a lot? yeah.
16. What would you do if you got pregnant? now? I will die ahhaha
17. Whats your favorite color? blue/purple/black
18. Heels or flats? flats.
19. Did you ever cry during a romantic movie? once.
20. Would you ever leave the house without make-up on? forever
21. Walmart or Target? none.
22. Do you wear collared shirts? checkered shirt counted right
23. Do you like preppy boys? yeah
24. Do you think lip gloss is the best!? no
25. Do you own any big sunglasses? no
26. How long does it take you to get ready in the morning? 5-10min LOL
27. Do you like to wear band-aids? no
28. Do you like skater boys? dk
29. Do you often wish there was something you could change? yup
30. Gold or silver? Silver.
31. Do you like to receive flowers? okay...
32. Do you like surfer boys? idk...
33. Do you dress up for the holidays? no
34. Do you like to wear dresseses? okay but more to no...
35. On a scale of 1-10 how much do guys confuse you? hahah idek
36. In the last 48 hours have you hung out with a guy? yes.
37. Would you date a guy shorter than you? no.
38. Do you like to hold hands? no.
39. What is the youngest you would date? same age as me?
40. What is the oldest you would date? 5 years older than me haha
41. What do you notice when you first meet a guy? idk..looks HAHAH
42. Is it hot when guys sweat? no.
43. What is the best feature in a guy? idk.
44. Do you like making eye contact? no.
46. Would you kill for chocolate? hhaha maybe
47. Did you ever spend all day/night getting pretty for a guy? no ahahah
48. On a scale from 1-10 how fun is shopping? 5.
49. Do you freak out if you miss your favorite show? somewhat
50. Do you yell a lot? maybe
51. Do you wear sweatpants/pajamas to school/work? no
52. Have you ever dressed unlike yourself to impress a guy? no
53. Do you write a lot of mushy love poems? no WHAT
54. What makeup could you not live w/ out? NONE
55. Do you fall in love easily? maybe
56. Do you have cramps? no lol
57. Do you think you have the bestest friend ever? maybe

HHAHA that's all

Thursday, 8 January 2015 @ 02:35

4 more days to o level results....gahhh

I really hope i can get the score i want...or else i will just emo again.

Recently been feeling rly sad all day and even trying to push people away...typical me ): I think something is missing but i do not know what is it. ):

But nvm...hopefully i will be back to normal after getting my results or going to school.

AAA concert is on the 4th april xD

Tickets will be sold on 9th jan (:

I am sure i can get the VIP tickets and maybe this is the only happy thing i can look forward to (:

This blog post is so random because i feel like blogging but i do not know what to blog about.

Sometimes, there are so many people surrounding you but you still feel lonely and even want to push them away. can anyone feel me? Even i can't understabd myself.

Sunday, 28 December 2014 @ 03:14

holidays are the best days

it has been a long time since i blogged

Life's good and i feel happy and relaxed almost everyday :D I got the money to spend on whatever i want, enjoy working and also eat good food during the christmas season and play my video games :D hehe. Currently crazy over this game series : professor layton

I guess that when your life gets busy, whether it is busy over stuff u don't like or busy enjoying, you don't feel like blogging or have no time to blog haha. I am just living my life to the fullest until the hell comes in 3 weeks time haha. Hope it isn't hell though D: I really really hope i did well for my Os...I really don't want to get slaughtered by my family haha and I really hate it when i get my results and everyone come flooding around me and calling me to know my results whether i am close to them or not.

Even if i failed to get into a JC, so what? Life still goes on. I can't change the fact if i fail but i just have to face it haha. Maybe the old me might have just wanted JC because it is the best and my pride uh.. but during this holiday..i have learnt many things. Sometimes the things I am really comfortable, suitable to and good at may not be the best things in life and it is okay. you just have to do what you really enjoy and not what is forever the best. The best may not be the best for you. hahaah i think i don't make sense. Do I? Gahhh nvm ( the thoughts are so sad JK I hope i can still go into a good jc :D)

Anyway things i did

- Work :DDDD

- Wild wild wet :DDD

- bought lots of 3DS games :DDD

- bought lots of cakes

- CHRISTMAS FOOOOD ( celebration at my grandma house ) :DDD

- Bought shorts haha :DDDD

- went to vic's church christmas service

- downloading soundtracks

I think nobody ever reads this blog so i can now bullshit over here

Sunday, 14 December 2014 @ 22:51

Life's good. i got a job, there's $$$ for me to buy stuff that i want, get to know new people and get to do things i want.

I really like where i am working :D and i am really lazy to write out what i did everyday for work.

Went AFA with Andrea, emelyne and beatrice, fiona and her friend sabrina :D

Here are the pics!!!